Hey deviantART. Time for another update
Outside of dealing with the usual "go to work, pay bills, try and be content with how your life is" outlook, i would like to state that I am, in fact, extremely happy. I got accepted into the Illinois Institute of Art-Chicago this past Thursday, and i can't stop thinking about it. What does that mean, my fellow readers? Well i guess that means a lot of things at this point. The other thing that i can't stop thinking about, however, deals with the whole concept of "having faith" versus "giving into doubt" idea that i'm going to attempt to explain.
Doubt was the very reason why it took me so long to put things together, in relation to putting stuff in place for a career. I didn't want to be a scientist, or a nurse, or a teacher, or a regional manager; i wanted to do something that i enjoy doing, and a career in the Media Arts field offers me just that. However, i always managed to put together some type of excuse as to why i'm not able to, such as worrying about having enough money to get things started, or if my skills are good enough to fit in, etc...I mean, don't get me wrong, there's some things that are just unrealistic at the moment(such as moving out to Chicago NOW and screwing over my roommate, putting everything on the line without having my bases covered, not being able to afford to invest in things etc...), but i was wrong for letting certain excuses hold me back.
i'm not in a situation where i can rely on people in order to reach my goals, and i'm fully aware of that. Any steps or any options that i needed to take i had to make for myself, and so far i've done just that. I came up with some decent money and visited the institute on the 17th of April...was it a coincidence that their only available day for Open House around that time was on my birthday? i'm not so sure about that lol
Then i started seeing opportunities, such as having an aunt that could possibly help me with a place to live temporarily, having friends that took time out of their schedule to show me around town a bit, being able to directly speak to a few of the school's instructors...and so i later realized how easy THAT was to accomplish, when before i didn't think these options were available. that tiny bit of experience put things that were going on with my life in a completely different perspective, and ever since then, while still seeing things from a realistic point of view, i've been having faith that it'll all work out for me in the long run.
and so far it's working. i got accepted, so now i'm trying to save up as much as i can before i make my move this upcoming month of May. Doubt can kiss my ass.
now granted, there are some things that i still worry about. but at the moment, i just see them as obstacles that i'll be sure to overcome once i get to them. just wanted to get that off my chest, so now i'm off to sleep...
-Reggie L.